I am Loosing self-control. Things are just going wrong when I need them to be right.
Can’t we just be ourselves when we need it!!
And this stupid pride ! How can we reject something we want so desperately!! Why?? Is it madness, or reason !!
I wish I just could be me in this moment and fix things like I usually do when I don’t care!! you know, being normal not just acting. Feeling easy when dealing with people you care for and not afraid of being rejected!
How it would be so relieving if feelings weren’t that harmful, if people were just pure souls, happy and goodhearted.
If there was no madness ruining and screwing every reasonable thought in my head right now !
I hate my day !! 😦