I am not sure if I am really back to my dear blog. All I know is that I was working, reading, searching …. Dying as death can ever be in Private Equity books, theses and websites. And God! I just can’t bear it anymore… For now.
Oh! Let me tell you dear reader about my journey … This so paradoxically horrifying and sweet journey. Well, my studies are finished ! Glad to hear? Of course, now I work… Kind of.
My work is a study thing 😀 I have to master Private Equity sharia compliant … But that’s not the problem .. No no no babies !
It was never a bad thing to learn. Science is a treasure, working is worship, and team work is magical.
Now what if the people you are working with are changing suddenly ?! What if they don’t trust you anymore?! What if they can’t leave you alone in the office, asking you to leave when they are leaving, like if you were a thief?! This is insane, seriously.
I think, Yeah I think! This is rude, impolite and just crazy as a behavior. Now, I can’t concentrate, can’t think about anything else but humiliation and (Yeah I have to admit it), my self-confidence is down. I feel like an empty ship made of paper, struggling in a fierce ocean, against wind and waves. Have no strength to keep moving. I mean, what’s the use of having faith in my work when no one cares for its quality, no one encourages. All they have is criticism, and I am so vulnerable.
Yeah, I through all my sorrow on my miserable work conditions and I forget another naughty other story…. Really guys don’t keep reading if this is too for your happy mind… I actually don’t care anymore.
« Friends are here to support us in our dark times« . Sorry, this is fairy tales! in my dark times I am alone, with my mind’s whispers and my sole shadow. Friends will tell you that they like you, they trust you … you will believe it,you will believe that you trust them, until the day when this liking thing we call friendship will disappear . Sole the ugly truth stays still. They will ignore you, avoid you, and kill every joy you may have experienced with them.
And yet, you will be waiting… Don’t know for what. But you will. Maybe one day everything will get back to the old days. Maybe someday, you will restore your lost friend.